so im supposed to write something here about something that interests me.....well.....where to begin....we'll start with my favorite sport...hockey.....this is my favorite sport in world......dont ask me why...my number one sport to play is volleyball....but hockey is the best sport to watch....EVER....dont argue with me on this.....i promise im right.....anyway.....im completely amd utterly proud of the astros.....they may have dropped the ball in the actual series...but you know wat....we got there dammit.....im so proud of my boys.....im slightly disappointed in our bullpen...but wat r u gonna do now.....i kind of hate the fact that i wasnt in houston for all that craziness.....i kept getting phone calls and emails and texts from friends from back home......it was slightly depressing.......wat else wat else.......

i was told that i needed to dedicate a little bit of this to my wolfpack.....they are my girls.....my east southside 2nd floor girls......beleive it or not....they are all kinda like sisters now......they definately make it easier to be away from my actual sisters......
danielle - she's like our resident angel...she loves to make everyone feel special and she's definately always there for us.....she's this tiny little 'spuirrel' girl....and we love her for being the shutterbug that she is.....she documents all the fun that we have around here
jessica - she's danielle's roomie.....she also loves to take pics...and she's more of a partier than danielle....she loves to have fun and dance and go to concerts.....she's there for us when we need it...but she'll definately call us out if we are being emotionally or any other kind of retarded
anna - she's pink....when u meet anna the first things that come to ur mind is cotton candy and kittens....im serious.....she's uber-nice and is always smiling....i swear to god she's always happy....but when she does get sad....she really really does.....she's definately that sister who takes u shopping when ur sad
elysia - she's adorable...definately that sister that will just listen when u need to bitch about something.....she likes to have fun but she is definately an observer....she has almost as much clothes and crap as anna.....their room is quite pink....and girly.....but elysia is a puppies kind of girl.....i love her
faith - my roomie....we had a rough start but i think we're good now.....she's sometimes a little too strange for me but whatever.....
margot - so margot doesnt live on 2nd floor southside...but she is an honorary southside girl.....she might as well live on this side.....margot is definately fun to be around....she's crazy as hell and she doesnt care what anyone else thinks about her.....she is very opinionated and makes sure everyone knows it.....we actually colored her hair the other night and it was fun......she is almost as random as faith....but she definately beats kayla in a 'sloth-off'.....we love her and we wish that she lived on this side with us..but she's stuck over on the loser north side....lol....we love u margot
misty - misty is always there for us.....when i locked myself out at 5 o'clock in the morning she was the one who let me in.....she listens but she always has something to say.....we love that she is open about everything......
kayla - kayla is the founder of the facebook club 'I've seen Christina's panties'....sometimes im not too sure if i should be flattered or offended by this....she's this petite little emo girl from nowheresville north texas who has an attitude from hell....lol.....i love her straightforward upfront way of dealing with things....she's a sloth though....if she's not in class or chillin with us...she's asleep
then there's me.....what to say about me.....im the adventurous one....the one who is always up for anything.....if im not in class or asleep...then im out with friends doing some random thing.....they all live vicariously through me.....at least thats what they tell me......wat can i say...ive never been a boring kind of person....why start now.......

so these are the girls.....the ones that make it a little easier to be away from home......my real sisters are very important to me and we did lots of stuff together....especially getting in trouble......but these girls make it not so bad being away from houston.......so i always wanted to get the hell out of my parents house...theres no question there....houston just has a very special place in my heart and its hard to be away from it....and my sisters......danielle, jessica, anna, elysia, faith, margot, kayla, and misty make it WAY easier

so everything that happens ive learned is a repricution of other things that ive done. im going to be a freshman in college in the fall. its not long now til i walk away from the place ive known all my life. and the thing that sucks the most is that im leaving some people behind. and a couple of these people are people that i never thought i would care about. or that would care about me. ive had a friend for a while now and ive always known that he had a thing for me. i just never felt that way about him. well we went out and now i have all these feelings that i cant actually explain. i told him that i liked him. all the while this one guy has been at the back of my mind for months. even while i was with another guy i was thinking about this other guy, we'll call him Baller. the long time friend we'll call, Jedi. so i told jedi that i like him yet baller was there at the back of my mind. me and baller have a history and he is now dating a friend of mine, he's also younger. well i was talking to baller a little while ago and he tells me that he never got over me and that he's willing to wait for me. the only reason why i said anything to jedi was because i thought that baller was totally out of reach. baller tells me that i should go ahead with jedi because he'll be here when i come back. baller is willing to wait for me and that really says something to me. im just kind of freakin here because no one has ever said they would wait for me and that they love me that much. everyone says that that is true love. but i dont believe in love. i only believe in lust. im pretty sure that this wont be my belief for all my life. i just havent me that guy that has changed my mind about it. maybe both of these guys can give me a second chance at this whole love thing.

so i used to say important things...i mean i had some great philisophical things to say...it was always interesting to talk to me or read what i wrote...now.........im like every other retard....it all happened because everything in my life changed.....i tried to change who i really was....im no longer intelectual like i once was....so here are the random meanderings of someone who wants to go back to being okay in her own eyes